Yep this is how I’m feeling right now. I have moved from MD to SC. It is now nearing the end of June.
Right now I want to back all the way out of leaving. I am scared out my mind. I am about to leave the United States of America my home my family my friends the only place I have ever known. I am taking my child and uprooting her praying I am making the right decision.
As I type I am shifting from scared to calm sense of peace. By the time I get to the end of this post I’ll be excited.
Yep I’m on an emotional roller coaster.
Am I happy? YEP
Do I regret saying yes? NOPE
Am I excited? Sure am
Am I ready? As ready as I’ll ever be
Have I prayed about? Daily
Will I miss the USA? I’m sure I will
Am I scared? HECK YES
However my fear is minimal compared to how excited I am.
I am going to be in a position most people only dream of. I am going on a new adventure. Anything new is suppose to be scary. I don’t have a lot to go on. Not like I have friends or family already in Kuwait that are like come on over let me tell you all about it.
Nope I’ve got Facebook people I’ve made contact with. Each person will have their own experience and that’s okay.
My goals
1. Have fun
2. Keep an open mind
3. Save
4. Get out of debt
5. Travel
6. Give my daughter the world to experience
7. Give myself the world to experience
8. Remain positive
9. Keep my passion for education
10. Grow as a Christian, mother, teacher, person
As long as I remember my goals my reason for going fear can kiss my behind. I will not the devil rise up in my happy and steal my joy.
I told you by the end of this post I’ll be excited and I am excited.
49 days and counting.